February 2012
41 posts
Tonight has left me speechless and has rendered me useless at trying to explain it. I just love Seb so much and I feel so amazed that I nabbed him. All girls should be jealous! =p
Why the hell is my anxiety getting worse as I get older? Shouldn’t it be getting better? Fuck everything. I’m even getting heart palpitations which scare the shit out of me.
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R♡: 10 reminders →
wolftattoo:
1. Remember that everyone you encounter today has been through or is going through something. Treat them accordingly. 2. We all have feelings and needs. We all have trouble communicating them clearly. That’s just how it is. Listen to people and try to hear what’s not being…
When you’re sitting at the dinner table and your little 13 year old brother tells you he doesn’t know what he’d do without you. BRB CRYING.
mnmlkid asked: I will love you no matter what. You are my everything.
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Scrolling through my dash at 9.26 in the morning and BAM! Theres a photo of a chick licking some guys butt hole. What the fuck!? It’s way too early in the morning for this.
How strange is the past...
I found a folder of files on my computer from years and years ago and there are saved conversations I had over MSN with a friend who sadly commit suicide….It’s so strange to think they were once living and breathing and their words are saved onto my computer and now that person is gone. I also found other conversations from my ex boyfriend from about 6 years ago and I can’t...
Once again I find myself in another fucked up...
Fuck everything. I am so sick and tired of being a human.
My boyfriend is at a party right now and he is extremely drunk and just called me to tell me how much he loves me and that I’m the one for him. Hahaha how adorable and embarassing =p
Reasons why I am shitted off:
I am in a fucked situation with regards to uni and I don’t know if it’s fixable.
Seb has to finish his report so I won’t be able to see him for a while.
I am sitting at home with no make up on and I’ve had a break out of pimples on my face because I’m stressed.
I’ve lost so many friends over the past 3 years because I can’t be fucked to get in touch...
I have never been in a more screwed up situation...
I am so angry. My life plan has fucked up entirely.
Today I’ve checked my emails about a hundred times and I’ve had to suppress the feeling of wanting to be sick. I’m so nervous and I miss my uni friends and I just want to know really soon if i’ve passed so I can be put out of my misery
I am so fucking angry and in such a self destructive mood that I feel like deliberately fucking up and sabotaging every friendship and relationship that I have with anyone. I absolutely hate everyone.
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Today I came to the conclusion that Seb and I...
Omfg by the way on the ninemsn news homepage there was a headline saying something like “Cruel video: Slaughtering halted at Sydney abattoir” I ACTUALLY DON’T WANT TO EAT MEAT AGAIN. WHAT THE FUCK. I love animals too much and the thoughts I’m getting in my head are just fucked. I would like to live in a cute little house in a paddock with lots of animals and I’ll have...
The world is fucked.
I went out for a walk with my parents and my dog and we came across one of our neighbours whose his dad is dying of cancer. My parents asked how his dad was and it started a conversation about cancer and life and death and even though it’s sad that’s how life is we just have to deal with it. Now I’m in a shitty, sad, existential mindset again where I can’t see the point in...
I have tiny veins.
I had a blood test today and the nurse had a lot of trouble trying to find a decent vein (wtf I’m so thin you can see all my veins) so she jabbed me and missed my vein and then got the older nurse to come in and do it so she tried in my other arm and it still didn’t work, then eventually she managed to find a good vein. She asked if I had anything to drink this morning, and I said yes,...
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I’m looking at all these blogs of lovely parents and their adorable children and it’s making me super clucky. Eughhhh. Whyyyy???? As much as I love kids, Seb and I are way too young and not financially stable. So potential kidlings will have to wait.
On facebook lurking all these people I once used...
Does anyone know any websites where I can locate...
I got some very personal anonymous hate from someone years ago and I would like to find out who it was.
There are times when I think I should just hand myself over to a mental hospital. Fucking hell.
I want to have a bath, but I'm so tired I'll...
January 2012
27 posts
I had a lesbian shower sex dream. Haha wtf does this mean!?
This is sad.
The other day my nan had a bad fall and ended up hurting herself, and understandably was very shocked. She’s lived on her own since her husband died over 25 years ago and she doesn’t see us very often. I made some banana and walnut muffins and wrapped them up prettily with a nice pink ribbon, and also gave her a small framed water colour painting I did. My dad went round to her place...
“Yeah, I am lost
I am lost in you
I am no longer searching
I’m no longer...”
– Lost In You by Lior
I am in a weird mood.
I am thinking too much and annoyed over too many things.
I just wish I was 5-10 years in the future so my life was sorted out.
Does anyone know where to buy good, chemical free,...
Omfg burping like a baby